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My name is Christine but friends call me christylynn or just christy.  I have been divorced now for about 5 years with two children that I love more than life.  In 2004 my son who is now 11 almost did not make through his intensive care while attending St. Joesph's Hospital due to pnuemonia/immune disorder that permanently damaged his left lung.  I spent the two years before and still today making sure that he is okay.  I guess it was the strength and determination of wanted to live that kept him and I going, pulling off each other.  The whole time I did not realize that my daugther who is now 13, was falling sick from an unknown illness.  I also did not realize that we were living within the walls of toxic mold either!  So, what happen?  Well, with no family help for the hundreds of times I have spent in and out of the hospital between the two of them I thought that I would never mae through it.  I lost friends because they could not handle all the sickness, family never came around or they were too far away to care and I found myself at the bottom of the barrel.  Somehow, maybe strength from above or just that darn determination that I had once before with my son and then again with my daughter when she was diagnosed with lupus and chronic ITP last year in 2005, but I found it and I started to rebuild my life and my childrens life with no help.  I have always been the person who never asked for helped EVER!.  I felt that if I could do it by myself that I would not have to worry or feel guilty about repaying anyone back.  But guess what, life is not that way.....I still find time to help out the little old ladies across the hall from me with groceries and event he kids in the neighbor hood that seem to always be alone.   Today, my son is much better with his immune system but still fights a tad with his asthma and my daughter--well lets just say that she still struggles with keeping her platelets count up so she does not hemmorage out but now I actually need the help.  There is one thing that I always wanted to do---it was to finish college.  I have tried for so long now--in and out in and out that I have lost financial aid because I tried to go to universities like Florida Metropolitian University that take advantage of students and I guess I seemed too ignorant or either desparte to pay attention to what they were doing which was absorbing all my funds.  I know that not one person knows me nor do they have to believe what I have been through becasue lord only knows that between the sickness and the visits to doctors and hospitals that I am completely exhausted but I only have four classes left and I just can not afford to pay for nay more classes.  My daughters doctors want her to go to Fort Lauderdale Florida to see this speciality doctor to see if they can help her and the insurance will not cover all of it so once again the money for school for the past 6 years has to go for my daughter which I will proudly do but it breaks my heart that it has to be this way.  Four classes left at $67 dollars a credit at 3 credits and I will have my AA in my hands.  One more trip to another doctor and it might be the one who can help her.  I know it is all far fetched but it's all I got and for the first time ever--I am asking for help but I would be more than enough grateful even if it were the thought as well!  Lover Christy